When I graduated high school, 21 years ago, I was a slim 118 pounds. At 5 feet 2 inches, I was a perfect size. By the time #1 was born when I was 21, I weighed in at 200 pounds. Now, 3 more kids later and many years since, I am considered very large. I have gone up and down with my weight over the years with several different diets and yet the number has still gone up. I have never been able to stick with a diet long enough or they just don’t work.
It is extremely hard to lose weight after you have reached a certain point. And eating the same foods as teen boys eat(who are extremely active and have amazing metabolisms), just adds too much temptation for someone who is looking to lose extra body weight.
So I’ve had enough of the struggle. I need help getting to my goal. After a lot of soul searching and some small battles with insurance, I’ve decided to have weight loss surgery. Gastric Sleeve to be precise. I only have 3 more things to finish, and then I can schedule my surgery date. I am on a medical weight loss diet right now to lose 14 pounds to be qualified for surgery. I have lost some of that 14, but it is a lot more difficult than I thought. I am the cook of the house. I can’t expect my family to eat the same foods I’m having to eat right now, so I fix the normal fare for them. You have no idea how hard it is to fight the temptation to cheat on my diet and take a bite of the yummy food i prepare for my family.
Our boys aren’t very supportive, but my husband has been amazing. He will even eat the same foods I do, so I don’t feel alone.
I am excited to take this step in my weight loss journey, but also so nervous. I know it’s not a quick fix, just a tool to help get to where I need to be. I’m terrified I am going to fail. I want this so badly. I want to be a healthier mom, I want to be able to see all of my grandchildren, I want to be more active, I want to look like I belong with my husband.
So, I will take it one step at a time, day by day. I have to keep telling myself I will reach my goals, and just keep pushing forward.